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Thursday, April 21, 2011

Winners and Chickens

First off, the winner of the three ARC (Demonglass, Like Mandarin, and Warped) is:

 Susanne Drazic!

 Susanne, drop me an email at storyqueen@gmail.com and let me know your address and I will ship those books to you!  Enjoy!


Hmmmm....there are lots of things I have been wanting to post about, but for some reason the words won't come tonight. 

 That has been happening a lot lately...the whole lack of words thing.  

I wish they would.  I wish I could open the doc or the notebook and the words would come pouring out, hot and fast, like soup in a bowl.

But lately it's been kind of like oatmeal.  Cold Oatmeal.

Sadly, I know the reason why.

I am afraid.

I am afraid that I am not ready to write the story I soooo want to write.  Or worse, not worthy.  I know, it sounds so stupid.  But these are the true feelings a writer goes through.  We have times when the rush of words is awesome.  And other times when....not so much.

The worst part, the absolute worst part is that I just don't know what to do about it.  I mean, maybe I can't write the words because it is the WRONG idea for me right now.  Maybe instinctively I know it in my gut, but I don't want to admit it.

Or, maybe I am just being lazy.  Or a chicken.  I like to think that I am strong and brave, you know.  But really, it's a mix of chicken and brave.  

But mostly chicken.

*sigh*

What to do?

Any of you out there who are in the struggle of words that won't come, well, obviously I can offer no valid advice.  But please know that you are not alone.

hrh

7 comments:

Jess said...

Hang in there~ I'm sure the words will come. (Cold oatmeal...yech!)

Lydia Kang said...

I always feel unworthy of writing the story I'm writing. I always see how perfect it could be...and then there my writing. It's always a struggle, but it keeps me aiming high. Go for it, Shelley!

Elana Johnson said...

Dude, I have felt this paralyzing fear. It is not a good place to be. But there is a light at the end of it, and then you will find your words.

Sharon K. Mayhew said...

You'll get your mojo back. I know you will. If you can go hang out with some preschoolers that might help? I know when I hang out with one of my friends kids I always feel inspired. YOU CAN DO THIS, SHELLEY! I know you can. :-)

Tricia J. O'Brien said...

We all have doubts, but there is something different and I'm not sure if that's what you mean.
I remember reading that Neil Gaiman didn't write The Graveyard Book for many years after he first had the idea. He said he wasn't ready and it took time before he knew how he needed to write it.
I have a story I'm not ready for yet, so I'm working on one I do feel is right.
Only you know, and if it's just doubt, it will pass. You are such a talented writer.

Donna K. Weaver said...

Not worthy. I can understand that sentiment.

Matthew MacNish said...

Dang! Lucky Susanne, congrats to you!

I don't know about the words not coming. I usually have no trouble writing something when I sit down to write.

I have been in a place before where I didn't feel motivated to actually sit down. So I didn't, for several weeks, but eventually it came back.

I'm not saying you should do that, though.