I am trying to end a novel.
It is hard.
I keep thinking, "This will be the day. I will finish TODAY."
But that was yesterday. And the day before yesterday. And the day before that.
I think the reason it won't end is because I have yet to have that moment.
For me, that moment is when I am writing a book and I make myself cry. It's not a forced cry, mind you, but a deep, heartfelt tear or two.
(Okay, sometimes I am writing funny things and I have to make myself laugh out loud before I know that it is right....over and over again at the same joke...it still has to be funny to me. Hey, that's just how I roll.)
Anyway, I need that moment in the writing when it's no longer about the words or the story. I need that moment when the only important thing is what I am feeling in my heart. If the deep feeling is not there, well, the story cannot end.
So, I am back at it today, hoping my characters will lead me to that moment of perfect rightness (or perfect wrongness, as the case may be) and I will have my little cry and get to type THE END.
Wish me luck!
P.S. Because I have an extremely full plate these days, dinner time at the Thomas house has been SUFFERING. So, I have developed a little dinner schedule:
Monday- Something good...Mondays are hard enough at it is, they really deserve to have a good dinner. Often it is crockpot night (nothing like coming home from work and smelling FOOD. Tonight it is BBQ chicken pizza.
Tuesday-Salad Night-Some kind of main dish salad. This week I think it will be a greek chicken salad, or perhaps a roast-beef bleu cheese salad. Dunno yet. But it will be a salad.
Wednesday-I have to drive kids this night, so it will be fast food. Usually In-n-out Burger is the choice because it is semi-healthy (you can have protein-style!) and not too pricey. And it always tastes good.
Thursday- Leftovers (if there are any from Mon and Tues) or Breakfast for Dinner. I love breakfast food and there is never time to make it. And eggs are super easy to whip up. So Thursday is Breakfast night!
Friday-Soup Night OR Mexican Food- It totally depends on my mood. If I need comfort food, it will be a soup night. If I need a fiesta, it will be Mexican!
Weekend-No rules...whatever anybody feels like making.