Thursday, October 17, 2019

Let's See If I Remember How to Do This

It's been a long time since I've clicked on the "new post" button on my blog.

I wish I could tell you why.

Maybe it was that it felt like there was so much noise in the world that I probably didn't have anything worthy to add to it.

Maybe it felt like if I did add something and it was kind of frivolous, it would seem like I didn't care about big things.

Maybe there was just a lot of things going on behind the scenes of my life and there were no words I could even give to the blog. Maybe I needed every word I had left inside of me to say to someone who needed it or to write something that needed to be written, lest I lose my mind.

I am not even sure myself, but I am fairly certain it was a potent mix of all three.  And for some reason that I don't even understand myself, I clicked "new post" just to see if it still worked.  And it did.

So here I am. Here we are.

And I find that actually, I have a lot to say. And I am trying to be less afraid of things in every aspect of my life. I am trying to be brave about sharing pieces of myself again. Because that's all we can do sometimes, isn't it?  Attempt to make connections with other humans so we won't be alone. So we can somehow stay together and weather the storms to come.

See you on the open seas, my friends.