To be perfectly honest, I did not expect it to feel so weird, having this book out into the world. I thought it would feel kind of like when my other books were released. Lots of happy feelings and all.
Maybe it's because this book is so much longer than anything I've ever written, or maybe it's because it contains a good deal of my soul, but whatever the reason, the first week after the book launched, I just felt....shy.
And all I could tweet about or blog about was the book, because that was stuff that people already knew. I couldn't put anything new out there into cyberspace because so much of me was already out there. And it felt so, so strange. I mean, I was excited for people to finally be reading my story, especially kids, but at the same time, I just felt very Open and Odd. And Awkward, too.
It is scary, having so much of your heart out in the world. And I wasn't afraid of people hating it or anything--that's their prerogative--it is more just that it felt strange to have people knowing the truths I held in my heart.
So, amidst all of these strange and awkward feelings, I find myself trying to work on another book, for what is a writer but one who writes. And the going is rough.
But there is magic in the world, folks. And the great thing about magic is that it comes upon you when you least expect it. I got a package in the mail, all wrapped in tye-dyed duct tape and inside was this:
It is a hinged seal-box. And it was the most perfect gift I could have received. My current story deals with Celtic selkie legends (shape-shifting seals). What a beautiful and awesome trinket! And what an amazing way for a friend to reach out and touch another friend, even if they had no idea that the friend was struggling with strange and unusual feelings. (Because this is all kid of weird to be talking about.)
So, thank you, Myrna, for making me feel less alone. And thanks to all of you who have read Trinket and let her into your hearts. I am so proud of how everything turned out, even if it feels as if I am broadcasting to the world all of my secrets between the covers of this little book.